Darrell said: November 2, 2009 10:31 pm PST
The site is really coming together...WOW, the videos are so powerful; it really reaches deep down into my soul and memories. The hurt, the fears, the confusions...wondering if I was meant to be. I can only imagine the pain of those men and boys whe suffered much worse abuse than did I.
I attempted suicide twice at the age of 14; became a cutter...and the impact of the pain has affected me for over 40 years.
Trouble with jobs, society, feeling so horrible about myself for so many years. I sincerely believe that all of this was to bring me to a point of understanding of others; that's why I'm so passionate about trying to help others.
This site is IT! It tells the stories, it expresses the feelings men normally cannot experess. What a poweful way to tell the stories that most don't know about how men can suffer terribly too.
I do get emotional, but I've learned to deal with it and move forward with the strength of God in my life, and knowing the needs of millions; hoping I can make a difference.
After getting involved in advocay for the abused, I realized it would be beneficial to others for me to share my personal stories; knowing that my family members and friends are most likely to see it.
This is one of the many reasons I held all of it in for so many years, to keep those close to me from knowing. But now that I've published my stories on various sites, I feel such a relief.
What can I say?? This is IT!
God bless you all.